Day 31: Last Day

FUCK YEAH! LAST DAY!

I have no idea what to post anymore so I'll just answer a couple of questions posted as comments on my last post.

>What if you're out partying on new years eve and a hot girl comes on to you and wants to make out with you and have you touch her all over then wants you to masterbate while you look at her masterbating while looking at you?  by Bersercules

I would do it if she lets me cum in her mouth or face. Bukkake anyone? Then I'll have sex with her. All this vent up sexual energy within me can probably make me cum at least 3 times.

>srs question here: does it really make you feel more manly? i've read some stuff saying that first 5-7 days aren't really changing you too much, but after about 10 you are more confident and all. is it real? please don't bullshit me, just harsh truth: REAL difference or just imagination and stories to make your fapless time seem worthy? 

 Well kind of. I've posted before that I did become more confident after some days. Even up till now I feel more powerful and confident. The only problem I had was I was constantly busy this month and I didn't go out much. If I did go out, then who knows what would probably happen?

Also, sorry I didn't post much about what is happening when I am outside. For instance yesterday, a cute girl started a conversation at me at a drugstore. She told me that the gloves I'm going to buy is small and would only fit her size. She smiled and I smiled at her also. Before she left, my mind goes "Get her number now!" But the cashier was talking to me and I'm in a hurry. She also looks like she's in a hurry also. You probably think that I lost the chance. Well indeed but I realize something, a lot of people usually start conversations to me when I go out. But when a pretty girl talk to me I feel kind of shy and intimidated. However yesterday I felt natural and at ease that if I indeed get her number, she'll love it or even though I didn't get her number, it's okay since I'll probably meet another girl soon. Do I think NO FAP DECEMBER 2011 made me think like so? Yeah, but not entirely because by this month I started working out again, finally got a job and met new friends. Surely my confidence boost have been brought up by a number of other reasons too.

By tomorrow I'll post a review or debriefing of what I experienced and experiencing after a month of no self-pleasure. Stay tuned man.

That's it one more day to go.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Last 2 Days!

It's almost over. But yesterday I almost ejaculated from watching at porn. I know it's really bad to fail at this point. Not to mention I'll fail most of you guys too who really believe I can do it.

2011 is almost over too. Now, I'm busy listing all my goals for 2012. I'm really excited on next year and whether or not the world will probably end or not. But before that I'm thinking about what gift should I give myself if I indeed accomplish this goal. I got this idea from a comment of my previous post. I never thought about it since I'm more focused on actually finishing it than the rewards I will get. Like get a class-A escort? lol. Though I'm surely going to a bar and drink some to celebrate.

A recent comment on my last post ask me how often do I fap before I take on this challenge. I usually fap 3-4 times a week. I watch porn by that much also.

 

'Till next time guys.

I will surely end this year with a bang!

Cheers!

Almost There!

Just three more days guys!

I'm excited though I'm also a bit disappointed about what happened on Day 24 because some might consider it as fapping. Either way I'm still happy about my self-discipline. It has surely improved and has even showed results into other areas of my life. For instance, I was only tardy once this month. That's great news since this new job I have is earlier than my previous one. I was able to come to work everyday before 8AM. Yeah, I'm proud of myself for that. I also have more energy throughout the day even if I sleep late the day before. Not fapping really increases my energy.

Before I end I would like to share the blogs of guys who have been able to go past one month. 

http://2011abstinence.blogspot.com/

http://chaste-virgin.blogspot.com/

Those guys joined NO FAP 2011 and were able to go past one month. I'm not sure if they are still going strong by this time due to the lack of updates. But I have hopes one of them might.

I hope all of you guys have a great New Year!

Cheers!

Day 28: Four More Days!

The past couple of days where easy. I never had much thought into fapping at all. Though I'm wanting to have sex more and more. The presence of a girl I find attractive is what I really want right now. Going for an escort like what I posted here seems a good alternative to.

A lot of you may be wondering how's my sex life before all this. Truthfully I've only had sex with twice. One is with an escort. It's a pretty bad record at 24, I know, but slowly I believe my life relationship wise is improving. I just need to get out more and socialize. Also, I'm a bit afraid of rejection. It's the reason why there were instances in my past when I didn't make a move on a girl even though she showed signs of interests towards me.

Only four more days to go and I'm through. 2012 is only four more days away too. I'll be making my Goals for 2012 this Friday and I already have some stuff listed on my mind. I'm excited and looking forward to it.

Stay strong bros!

Day 26: The week after Christmas and before New Year's

I guess we have a mixed opinion regarding whether I did fail a couple of days ago or not. Yes or no, I will still do my best like before to not fap until December ends.

Well it's only a week to go before we enter 2012. I suddenly thought about what I have done this year. Like if I achieve my goals or not. I wrote my goals for 2011 on a notebook and will look for it. If I remember correctly I probably accomplished 4 to 5 of my 9 or 10 goals for this year. A bit below standards for some but for me it's pretty much okay since considering this is the only year I started setting up goals.

Aside from that I'm thinking about getting an escort or hooker to end my No Fap December, rather than fapping. What do you guys think?

Enjoy the Holidays!

Christmas Eve

Ah the day we are all waiting for is here. Here I am staying at my parents house once again.

First off I have bad news though not entirely. It happened last night and I'll just post what I can roughly remember. I remember I was having a really sexual dream but I woke up with a raging boner. After a few seconds I came while hugging a pillow. I didn't touch nor remember using my pillow to massage my dick. So does that count? Was it a failed wet dream?

Either way, I'll still do my best not to fap until January comes. I really was so horny yesterday. What happened is probably for the best though I didn't think it took all my "horniness" away. I still want to have sex with a girl pretty badly. Now I'm sounding too needy. Well what should I expect right? LOL!

My mind is still on the goal and will pretty much achieve it (if we didn't count what happened yesterday). So don't worry if I might give up.

That's it and Have a Merry Christmas guys!

The Winter Solstice

The shortest day of the year has just passed. Now where down to two days before the day everyone's been waiting for. For me that's nine more days before GLORY! (Yeah that's a bit exaggerated.)

I still get boners except they are more frequent. When I see a cute girl that I like I feel my dick slightly throb. I feel slightly embarrassed about it. Though there are thoughts in my head who tells me, "Smile at her, it's okay" and "It isn't bad that you show interest to her, I mean she's cute and she deserves it". My confidence has definitely increase but so is my sex drive. If I were in the situation right now when a girl showed signs of wanting to have sex with me, I would drop everything I am doing and just do her.

Aside from that, I haven't gotten enough sleep yesterday and today. I feel so sleepy all day. (Horny but sleepy. LOL)  When I get home I believe I'll just go straight to bed.I want to be refreshed and energize for Christmas.

Enjoy the Holiday Weekend guys!

Cheers!